i guess im gg thru some emotion shit again, if not i wont be here blogging . everyone now and then i will just stop and look or think back . the memories we had, all those laughters, all the happy times we had together. i will just undergo this emotional stage myself, soon it will be over i guess. i believe you are enjoying your poly life, thats really a relieve. im always worrying that you cant take poly life . but looks like you prove me wrong . ((: 

stop to look back or just continue with life
stopping is a choice but the world will keep revolving .

Livejournal has already been a place where i will empty all my emotionals feeling . keeping it away from all, hiding all my true self and putting on a fake self . time after time i hate blogging already, cause whenever i have to blog its something rather saddening . clubbing is a form of numbness that i will get during the process and the after process . its something that probably by now i've been or already addicted to it .

this song 爱海滔滔 is repeating and repeating in my itunes . everytime i listen to this song, it only reminds me of you.
during the process, i will go thru some super emotional state of my life .

爱海滔滔
演唱:陈浩民

试着去努力
鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气
没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚
还是找到了我
排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜 不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

总有一天你会看到
爱和海掀起惊天巨涛
我会以无坚不摧地力量 让你知道

someone requested for me to do a blog entry.
i dont know what shld i write on here anymore,
its seems that my heart is dead
i can no longer feel anything
im trying to avoid coming to Lj
this is the place that i will release everything and anything
i cant deny the fact that i missed you
but i try and im trying not to miss you so much
who knows what im going thru now?